change?

I used to pray for the pain to leave

Now i ask it what it needs

Growth ain’t clean, it claws, it bleeds

Change don’t knock, it breaks in, screams

They said, “you different,”

But meant it like distance

They want the version

That don’t feel resistance

New hair, new clothes, new face online

But same old soul still stuck in time

I smile like the past don’t speak

But it calls every night when the dreams go weak

Switch flipped

Days blend

Friends fade

Texts send

I post wins just to hide my war

But the trophies don’t feel like gold no more

Evolved so hard i don’t know this skin

Am i proud, or just pretendin’ again?

Change?